Journey -By Lea salonga

I am but a traveler, in most every way
Ask me what you want...to know

What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
and they're bound to guide my way  +Niveditha P 

When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in,
what a journey it has been.

I have been to sorrow
I have been to bliss
Where I'll be tomorrow,
I can only guess

Through the darkest desert
Through the deepest snow,
Forward always forward, I go..

What a journey it has been
and the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
and they're bound to guide my way

When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in,
what a journey it has been...

Forward, always forward...
Onward, always up...
Catching every drop of hope
In my empty cup

What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
and they're bound to guide my way

When they're shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won't let the darkness in,
what a journey it has been...

What a journey it has been...

In ecstasy

What is love if it’s not intensified with Madness?

Love acts as a bridge to all unseen and unknown places

Love is the connection to heaven and hell

Love is like a child it should be nurtured & protected from negative things

If it’s nurtured well its gateway to heaven otherwise vortex to hell  

Love has it all.

You need to connect with it and then alone the power of love will be realized.

Love is always strength never allow it to become your weakness

Power of love will make you do anything impossible

Allow yourself to engulf with its strength, because this living place can be turned into Paradise

Love with its different phases gives us test to seek its real manifestation; those who give up will be pulled into the vortex

Love makes one crazy, fearless in its First stage,

In its Second phase it makes one confused, insane with its own act

During the Third stage if one comes out stronger of the phase two, it makes one really calm, content with life and you can feel oneness with nature the perfect harmony the ultimate bliss in itself.

No longer will you see the faults of the person but the joy what they brought along and the inward journey they made us walk is the real journey of Love.

I completely agree to this “Two people when they connect with their hearts live forever”

Dedicated to MY SHIVA -My as in very beloved one

The deep rooted connection I feel with myself is when I am in your thoughts , I can feel the magnetic connectivity where I am instantly drawn towards you Lord. 
When I look back my previous years and the way I have grown in your presence and the bonding developed over years amazes me.
My connection with you as a child began in blind faith and religious practice followed at home, the prayers, mantras along with the incense stick fragrance and your picture with matted hair with water lady, half crescent moon, snake around your neck, body smeared with ash and elephant skin amused me and there was this longing developed to see you in real and continued to grow inside me.
As the years added on I started to know you a little more each year and now I understand the word GOD stands for  (Generator, Operator and Destroyer).
The meaning of the Lingam and perfect sense to the way you are dressed and lots of other things.......


But it did not stop there, my quench to understand the entire creation process was still running in my head.... My questions and doubts on the ether world existence, unknown city of mystics why people fought for God, caste issues........ & at one point in time my thoughts of you are an alien and my sleepless nights in long discussion with myself on all these things drained me .....
I was not seeing you the way I used to see you,the ignorant faith had developed to seek things in scientific way and with reasoning I felt terrible pain as I could not connect the instant way I used to and on the other hand I was in intersecting point where I saw both the circles, faith and the reason and I felt lifted up and an inner sense of calmness drew upon me and felt THIS IS IT.


In this reasoning phase and madness inside my head grandpa's words made me sane. Grandpa used to say many things about you....he said just indulge don't question just surrender to him and you will understand all ...he is beyond reason but now I know and feel what he meant.
It's like when you know something deep just surrender no point in deciphering in scientific way nor reasoning. Have understood that the best things should remain sealed because it gives everyone an opportunity to go his way to understand his meaning of life.... It's like a beautiful kiss kissed when both eyes are closed but the connectivity which each one finds in-spite of closed eyes ( my meaning of this is the best things in the world is unseen but can be felt with great intensity). 

The daily mantra or affirmation which has helped me to bring back connectivity to you is of Sri Ramakrishna and Sharada Devi's quote "It is faith in the name of the Lord that works wonders, for faith is life and doubt is death, Be sincere in your practices,words and deeds you feel blessed, his blessings are always showered on all creatures on earth it is needless to ask for it. Practice meditation sincerely and you will understand his infinite grace, God wants sincerity , truthfulness and love". 

Away from everyone

For quite sometime I have closed the door of my inner self not allowing anyone to enter my world.

Need this moment for some more time its contemplation time cannot be explained. After many years I am spending time with myself and have started to enjoy time alone with myself.

A couple of  friends have just walked with me silently along this phase without asking me anything 

A few have got irritated, agitated and withdrawn themselves seeing me like this ..... I understand that is the only way of their expression :)

I love all my dear friends and acquaintances I met during the journey, everyone had something to offer , forgive if my words or actions have brought discomfort during this phase of life

Oh gosh!! When I say this I feel like I have lived more than a thousand years on this mother earth :)  

I have lived on the lip of insanity, wanting to know reasons, knocking on a door. It opens I can sense I am close to it. I've been knocking from the inside!

WHO AM I TO JUDGE

Your mystic smile, hearty laughter, extremist in your talk, not bothered about society, who lives in her inner world of reflection & seeks meaning of her existence.

You wear what you like, dress and pose to your camera which captures the real you 

You are like a child, a nomad , impulsive at times

You know for your caring, loving and friendly nature which comes naturally without an effort 

You are prankster, flirt with life,crazy, who is loud when you need to be and expressive person.

Men only see that you are attractive, you just smile take it as complement and move on cutting things straight

Each has a way to judge and tag you but you are no longer worried "YOU R WHO U R"

Who are people to judge and tag anyone when they don't know the person and their life struggles,

We judge others instantly by their clothes, their cars, their appearance, their race, their education, their social status. The list is endless. What gets me is that most people decide who another person is before they have even spoken to them. What's even worse is that these same people decide who someone else is, and don't even know who they are themselves.

But deep down your soul seeks and wanders in search of a person who can see you beyond attractiveness, beyond their judgement, hope the day soon arrives where that person sweeps you out of the world and who can travel with a nomad like you who's world is enchanting, bright and filled with life THE LIFE which is to its purest essence.

“The highest form of human intelligence is to observe yourself without judgement.” Jiddu Krishnamurti

Our Snoopy

Bundle of joy, bundle of pranks, glutton, very lovable and well behaved is what you knew for “My Snoopy”

Born on August 2005, you were a gift to me when I returned home .Snoopy was the name I gave you. You were so mischievous 3 month old when I saw you targeting my leg when I came home, I am sure I missed seeing you when you were a month and half baby, I wish I was home to be with you but you were the talk I used to talk when I was miles away eagerly waiting to return home when I heard of you.

I remember we all used to fight who would have you next to us while sleeping; you were tortured by us as you were carried from one hand to another and finally mom scolding us telling she will send you back if we fight like this

Play, play …. Eat and eat and uncontrollable you were and always used to get scolding from all  , we all used to call you goat and pull your ears to make you angry and you ensured we would topple and you would lick our ears …. You were so much  joy and fun when you were one year old….

All my friends were scared because you used to pounce on them and strangers scared of seeing your well built but seldom they knew you were a saint and we used to laugh when we saw some1 scared of you because we knew what you were … you were only lovable and adorable and entire neighbor hood knew you and they used to address us by your name…… you were in such a limelight all the time my sweetheart…..

The next bundle of joy you gave me when I returned after my surgery was your offspring, I was there the whole night with you when everyone was taking turns to watch over your delivery, you gave us that extra warmth by allowing us to help you deliver wonderful pups and unfortunately only one boy and girl survived and they were so cute .It was hard to give them off but we knew we had you.

You started to grow so matured and well behaved and I started to miss the naughty snoopy, you never liked us letting you out and we staying in and always wanted to be around us listening to our conversation, you always bought the family together you were the best part we had after loosing grandpa, which healed us.

Now whom shall I call snoopy, whom shall I kiss and say bye when I go out, who will be there to greet me when I come home, to pounce on me bite and walk with me, miss you at all lunch/snack times the way you used to sit with us… both used to have fun when my friends were scared to come home, now who will be there? You were listening ear when I used to say things when I was low, who will be there now?

I have scolded you many a times but have loved you zillion times. So fast everything happened did not realize I will loose you on this Makara Sankrathi day. You gave us all wonderful gift a gift not of joy but tears, we miss you snoop miss you from start of the day till night. May you rest in peace and attain salvation.

Aug 2005 till Jan 15 2012http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CeeHywxJOeE