The love that carried me to this world

 

I was an embryo in your womb 44  years ago now you are the wide, sheltering cosmos that guards my every step."

Happy Birthday to me. On my special day, I dedicate these words to my Amma, celebrating her love, her sacrifice, and the life she gave me.

When July returned, the familiar shadow came—another year without you. I live by what you taught me, but the hollow you left remains, unfilled by anyone or any god. I kept every promise with my whole heart,I never wanted to leave you or let your sacrifice be wasted.

On July 11th, you brought me into this world. Your love gave me life that gift is the compass I carry. 

My soul keeps seeking a spiritual companion to walk beside me on the path you believed I could travel. I have stumbled and paused, trying to take the leap of faith you encouraged. I even found myself drawn to the gentle music of a face — Rajeev Khandelwal’s calm — longing for a steady presence. Yet I know I deserve a partner who will help me keep my feet steady and my heart true as I pursue my deepest purpose.

You waited for me, protected me in your womb, and sent me forth to carry our name. That legacy is mine now to continue I must carry it with the same fierce tenderness you gave me. I wish for a companion who sees the contours of my soul, who understands its wounds and its hunger, and who will walk beside me through the dark and the light.

Amma, I want your blessings and your presence more than ever. Your love is my north star — constant, luminous, and unfading. You are, and always will be, the love of my life

Always yours,

Dreamgirl Nive☘️

Amma, My Shiva—Reed Flute of My Soul

My dearest Amma, my mother, my guru, my goddess, my guiding spirit, my love, my anchor—you are my Shiva.

Our love was a sacred union steady glow in disciplined skies,
karmic light pulling souls eternally close.

To have had you in physical form,

the love you gave was tangible

in this three-dimensional world.

But the kid you raised still lives here,

missing your physical presence every day.

You've been on my mind as my comfort,

and my heart is full of you—

like the eagle spirit you always wanted me to embody,

soaring high, rising above the mundane.

I am connected to you through my prayers;

in stillness, I reach you, devoted heart aflame.

Your disciple is trying to accomplish

your unfulfilled mission, building it in isolation.

The time is near to leave the nest you built,

to reach a faraway land and build your shrine,

leading the life you envisioned.

Your wish is my wish—no duality here.

I am the body; you are my mind now,

our love weaving us as one.

Yet I miss you, Amma—your touch, your voice,

the food you fed me with boundless grace.

Why was I so lucky, I question,

to be born in your womb's holy cradle?

I am truly blessed to be your kid,

who will carry your love and healing

to faraway lands. I know you are waiting

for me on the other side, your light ever guiding.

A thought comes: how I wish

I could ring you in heaven and speak.

Then your silent inner voice answers—

You are in me; I have become you, my Amma.

In devotion's orbit, forever yours,

Your celestial child

Grandpa ❤️❤️❤️

 Happy 103 birthday 

Grandpa,Your 103rd birthday draws my heart close, hugging you across the gentle veils. You were giver and healer to every soul, touching lives with hands like soft moonlight and endless love. 

I remember you holding my small hand, walking me through Ramakrishna Ashram garden, training me to lean on spiritual strength, to surrender all. The responsibility you placed on me was huge—even as you left, I tried carrying it, offering it up in Shiva's abode. 

As Rumi whispers, what we do for ourselves fades, but what we do for others endures forever—like your gifts to us all.

Your sankalpa wove our family as one—me and Amma, holding it alive, like the dream you breathed into us. Amma joined you in heaven ten moons ago, both swaying free in Shiva's tender dance. So blessed you are there, wrapped in His quiet light together.

Thank you, Grandpa, a million times over, for her—your wonderful daughter, my guru, the warmth in my days. May you, Amma, Daddy, Chikkama, and Mama all be happy forever in Shiva's abode.

I love you forever.

Your little girl,

Promise in Time's Cup

Sweet Rascal's Warm Echo

Your caring warmth wrapped me like a soft shawl,
Nurturing my peace, guarding your family's light.

Who knew our liking ran this deep after sixteen years?

A hidden stream, now seen, but risking it would break us both.​

You are too good a flirt, sweet rascal, hitting women like me right at the sweet spot—master of words that melt, you'll always be my Maddy with that seductive voice.

Both sharing that same intense romance, wish we had known each other well sixteen years back.A promise of coffee date and kiss made then, still waiting to bloom in time's gentle hand.

When time settles us, longing still alive in our hearts,Life might bring us back as true allies, no chains.

Till then, in the quiet, our genuine warmth and desire forge strength 💜 

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I WILL lOVE YOU THOUSAND WAYS

Love's conversation with her Beloved, Beloved asked will you love me or leave for another Man.

 

 
Love replied, I have know you for a while now,
I know you deep like you never knew yourself before,
I know what you seek , your likes/dislike, your strength and your Weakness,
I have worked hard to understand you with all my might coz you were cold to open up.
 
I remember you and so shall our love story, which evolved beyond chaos,
Glad I stayed whenever I wanted to walk away, I knew I was paired up for a karmic purpose,
A reason beyond my understanding, then you came up with your story,
I knew the hurt of your troubled past but I saw you holding on to your past and curbing the "Now".

You were hurt many a times before but now my beloved you are with love,
She has seen you, accepted you for who you are,
She sees potential of this relationship which can evolve by seeing the strengths of each other,
Love has been hurt before but she is willing to risk herself to see her beloved grow and she says this,
Beloved just surrender to Love, for her love can heal you and take you to your purpose in life.
 

Love replied " I don't need to love a thousand men, but can love you a thousand ways".
You will be my baby, my strength to fight in life and my sweet nothing as well,
I open the doors of my ever flowing love and allow you to taste the sweet nectar,
I will show you my way, just let go the past and come with me to a new world which we can create.
 
I shall take you close to my arms, feel you and smell every breath of you,
I shall lead you to the cleansing act, I shall bathe you in milk and rose petals amidst ever burning candles and incenses,
Gently wrap you around me in the highest peak of our oceanic view, gentle breeze stroking our fragranced bodies and soothing all our hurts of the past,
While the sensual music play around us, I shall kiss and evoke your soul,
Every gentle touch leading us to the highest sensation and uniting our awakened self,
Our moments movement create the magnificent symphony, making our souls one. 
 
Love concluded when our souls becomes one, it asks for nothing and becomes one with the Universe. My love should be the strength to fight your weakness away,
Our love should bring out the best in us not the other way,
Beloved I have given my whole self in this short meeting, it's up to you to value this relationship and take it forward or make a happy ending with creating a new self of you.
 

 
 
 
 
 
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Hold Me For A While

I know this won't last ever, so hold me for a while before the morning takes you away!!!
My shivering soul needs you like never before, coz you're the only one who can give the warmth and save me from the chain of events happening in my life.






You and I were never meant to be together but we are in each other all the time,
I protect you inside my warm heart, our love is one of a kind !!
Thou miles apart , not speaking to each other still we communicate with each other,
My soul gets its hope thinking of you ,
In distress the thought of being in your protective arms saves me!!

God gave us short span of lifetime to spend with each other,
Many a things we wanted to achieve together and do together,
But then he took you away from me! left me completely lifeless!
I gained my strength when I met the wrong ones in life.

For all the wrong people I met till date, you were  the only  right one who I met in life,
You turned my weakness into my strength,
Your presence in life is like a light house always guiding me,
God moved us apart to keep this longingness in our hearts guess for a reason,
And today I got to know why, coz that space is not worth giving anyone!!!

"Some guys feel the need to love a thousand different girls,
but a real man knows how to love one woman a thousand different ways "
You were my REAL one.

Dedicated this to you my love, "Your Bride forever"!!!!
Hold me 4 a while




 

Intruded

You did not ask, you intruded my world!!
Your long years of yearning is spent, here you will dwell only in mortality!

Anouk in her discussions with her Eternal Mate :

Anouk asks does virtue has any fate...I see none who worries about it these days.
Eternal Mate( EM), unveils a story long forgotten by Anouk i.e. "Love".
The naked truth which stands solely is "Virtue" .
“When virtues are pointed out first, flaws seem less insurmountable.”


Everyone has desired to touch only your body not your soul.
I see none making an effort to go beyond the body, they have forgotten that transcending the body exists eternity.
"Engulf my soul not my body"
Body is only a bridge connecting to the soul, do not linger in the bridge long, once it decays you cannot crossover.
Don't be a fool to think owning my body you can engulf my soul.
Move beyond the ordinary and make it extraordinary.
"Extraordinary gets its transition from ordinary".

Anouk you have transcended the ordinary, you have travelled a long distinct path alone with spirit of warrior and childlike curiosity.
You have gone beyond the known, which is seldom difficult to explain those who have not travelled your path.
You haven't met your guide in your extraordinary world, the crossroad is a pain, pain of death is nothing in front of it.
You cannot come back, coming back will irk your soul.
Only moving ahead will give you hope, you will gain strength in time.
It's time not to look back.

You're the true calling for yourself, your true spirit waits for it's culmination.
This is not the end...
It is the beginning.
You cannot falter now.
If you trust nothing else,
Trust this long forgotten virtue of yours,
"Trust love, for love, if it finds you worthy, will lead your course".